You know you cant want it, but you do. And you know you cant do a thing to change what has happened and you know that you are just wanting to scream it. But you cant and you wanna change what your doing you dont wanna be sucked in even more and when you do finally break it wont be a couple pieces. It will be a million you'll be shattered.=[ You know you cant but you do and for once you'd like to get what you want. But you know that cant happen.You know you cant finally be happy. You know that once more your going to have to pick yourself up off of the ground and it like always will be hard and it will hurt, but all you can do is try. So when you see him you'll keep smiling while inside you breaking even more your crying and screaming and your throwing everything around, but in the real world you look at him smile and walk away. Happiness is so overated =/